I was going to vent but what’s the point? No matter what I say or do… it just never gets threw to you. I’m not going to be here forever. I’m not going to sit here and wait to see when it’s convenient for you. I want you to make the effort, I want you to show me how you feeling, I want you to want me. I am tired of asking and asking and asking because all I get is excuse, excuse, excuse. I just worked almost 9 hours straight and haven’t seen you in almost 3 days, what in the fuck do you think I want to do? Spend the some god damn time with you. Honestly, when someone you love doesn’t give you enough time with them or anything like that, things start to change. feelings and emotions toward that person start to diminish and i don’t want that. But what does all this even matter? You focus on me and us, you lose contact with your friends and struggle with school. You focus on school, you lose contact with me. I know which is more important and what’s actually going to happen, so why am I continuously trying to stop it from happening? i know it’s not what i want but it’s what going to happen. if what i want is possible, it would of happened by now. I honestly don’t know where this is going…. and I need to know or how some sort of direction. I hate being lost